Sorry that I haven't been writing lately-- or rather typing-- I've been sick and before that, I've been busy! Well, I've been busy with Middle School. the most dreadful place of my life right now, besides my home. The only save haven in my home is my room. And the only save haven in there is under my bed. And under there, the corner filled with spider webs, cobwebs, my cat, etc...?
Hold on, gotta get my food!!
You know what I wish for? I wish I could go into the world of my books and stay there forever, in the comfort of others' stories. 'But be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it, cause you just might get it.' You know PCD? No? Well you wanna know what I really wish for? More damn viewers!!! Why do you think I write, for the benefit of me? No. For the benefit of you? Yes. And why do you think it is that I stopped writing to you or simply "forgot" or am "busy". Because, I get no comments, and only 500 something views out of this whole time that I wrote!!! How am I supposed to be aware of you even being there if you don't even leave a comment for me? For others to enjoy?
Now that That is out of the way, I've been thinking about what I want to do in life. What college courses I am interested in, what I wanna do in High School. Well I'm taking French for Freshman year. I am taking piano lessons, singing, and teaching myself how to play a guitar! With the help (sometimes) of others. Can any of you play guitar? Leave me a comment. I wanna be an actress. And if not that, I want to be in a band but there's no one in this dull town who is awesome enough. And None of them would want it to be their career. I mean look at Paramore!!! They started at flippin 13!!! Im almost 14! Why can't I be like them? Hayley Williams inspired me to even sing! And now I am great at it! And I can sing all of the Paramore songs off of the top of my head. Even the ones you've never heard of or that were never on record.
Is there anything you want to be?
Can you tell others about my blog? Please? Would you like it to be a pretty please to look at?
Blogs annoy me sometimes. You wanna know why? Because you sit there and look at other people's lives you don't even know about! I'm not the Fashion blog. Or Music blog. But maybe you come to love the person in your own way? Maybe you came to know them more than their friends know about them? It's like therapy, telling your entire secrets or life to some stranger. Or gazillions of strangers? But I think it's interesting. Cause I am just that type of a person. So screw me over for it. Do I care? No. I don't even know you. I don't even know if you are there.
Speaking of friends, I'm sick of all of the ones I have right now. One of them is a stinking female doggy dogg that I cannot stand right now! She is an outright bitch that is toooooo dramatic and overexagerates EVERYTHING. And she thinks that everystinkingbody hates her. Gosh, can she get a grip on her handlebars? She's gonna fall off of that bike if she doesn't. I can actually deal with Emily, she's not a problem. But this one guy friend is annoying me right now. I just don't want to be bothered by anyone or talked to by anyone but how can I tell them that if I don't want to lose their friendship? And California, I'm cool with now that I have talked to her. But before I couldn't stand her. I just want to talk to my old friends who are not judgemental about everything and just as crazy as me. Let us get this straight: CALIfornia is a wimp. She is not brave enough to do anything that I do, and I have seen that. I shout some wierd stuff to the top of my lounges. A couple times with the teachers/principals/vps there! Yeah, like the song I Just Had Sex by The Lonely Island.
Why can't my life be as simple but awesome like music? Like the song CrushCrushCrush by Paramore. Or like a book. Or a movie. I could die in search of that life. But I may never get it.