Dejected

ATTENTION ALL VIEWERS:

Sorry I hadn't been updating lately. I have had a busy week. And Friday was the most depressing day out of the whole week. My two supposedly BEST friends ditched me. And I am pissed off with California. She is a female dog. And I hope that she reads this too. She has been acting so unfair. So she comes over every morning so we can walk to the bus stop together. And I eat cereal in the morning. And she actually has to leave the apartment because she cannot stand the sound of chewing. Well I have to eat, so deal with it! But I don't complain. Like are you SERIOUS?! You have family. You eat dinner with them. You hear them chew. But you can't stand MY chewing! And I don't eat with my mouth open. My mum raised me to eat with my mouth CLOSED. Then I try to talk to her, you know, because it's awkwardly quiet. And we are friends so I want to have a conversation because lately we haven't talked that much. On Wednesday I made her a Secret Assignment and folded it into a paper crane. And she couldn't do it because her mother said no. So what?! I am your friend trying to repair this friendship and you just toss it away. So when I had to grade her I have her a failing Z. Not an E but a Z. Ha. Then it comes lunch time on Friday and I am sitting all alone at my lunch table eating my salad, waiting for the two of them to come and sit down after they get their lunch.

I have lost a lot of friends this year. It started with me losing my bestest friend Tree. Then she moved. And I lost gazillions of friends. Then we make a whole new table. And our table is full. And one of the girls there started being a female dog to Emily. So we tell her she needs to leave and she takes her "best friend" who follows her around like a dog and does everything she does. Then Howie leaves because all the boys left the table after the female dog. So now it is just me, Emily, and Cali. The three of us.

So I am sitting there at the lunch table all by myself like a loser. And I don't want to be a target for all of the popular idiots to talk about. So I leave my lunch at the table until the get to the table and go sit with my other friends that I have been friends with for three years. And I see Cali and Emily with their lunches asking people can they sit at their tables. And I am so confused because they are supposed to come sit at our usual table. But they leave me all ALONE! And I walk up to Cali and ask what is going on. She ignores me. So I wave my hand in front of her face and she whirls around and says very snottily "What?!" So I tell them I might as well start eating in the bathroom if I am going to sit all by myself. I would never have left Cali all by herself just because I was mad at her. And I don't even know why she is mad at me. I don't. At all. She didn't even give me a clue.

So after my Computers class, Emily walks up to me like she does every day to tell me what I need for my last class, language arts. But I ignore her because I asked someone else what I need for Language Arts. She asks me what is wrong. Oh I wonder? So then she says that she doesn't know why Cali is mad at me. So I guess Emily and I are cool now. But I asked my friend Marina if she had any open seats at her table. She said one and that I could sit there for the rest of the year. So that is my permanent table from now on. Yay. 

And in choir. We are doing the Don't Stop Believing Glee version for our Spring Concert. And when I first saw that episode where they performed that, I wanted to do the solo so badly but I knew I couldn't because I would never get the chance. But then our teacher announces that we are doing the song. And I am like this is a dream come true! I was so happy so I started to rehearse for the solo with my piano teacher and myself at home. And I told Cali that I wanted to do the solo, that I have always wanted to. And so the day comes where I get to try out. And I am the first one with my hand in the air. And guess what? Cali wants to try out, too. Why can't she just let me have this moment? I want to get that solo because I have wanted it from day one. Cali always says that she is a terrible singer and is terrified to sing in front of other people by herself. So why would she want to try out? Because it is something I wanted. So she shouldn't be angry with me. It should be me ignoring her. But I don't because we made a New Year's Resolution to be friends no matter what and if we get angry we have to forget about it. But obviously she cannot uphold her end of the bargain.

Man, I am on a rampage today. And my mother and I are going to take our anger out today by painting the walls. So wish me luck. Because I need it. 

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Book of the Day: The Iron King by Julie Kagawa

Song of the Day: The Day I Left the Womb by Escape the Fate

Celeb of the Day: Darren Criss

Thing of the Day: A big fresh brewed pot of boiling anger

Animal of the Day: My Nala-Koala. (My cat)